Chapter 29 – AWOE

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Chapter 29

Lance backed away a step and then said coldly, “What are you trying to do?”

“Can’t you tell?” De Mo’s eyes curved innocently. “I’m trying to help you.”

Lance’s brow tightened, raising his guard. “I don’t need your help.”

“Don’t be like that. I know you’ve liked him for a long time. Look…” She looked around the room with admiration. “Your heart is full of him. Since you love him this much, then why would you let him go? He will get married soon to a woman who isn’t worthy of him, don’t you feel sad?”

Lance looked at De Mo, thinning his lips. “That woman is you.”

“Yes.” De Mo laughed at him. “But in your heart you definitely think that I’m not worthy of him.”

Lance didn’t reply. He was trying to figure out what the woman in front of him was plotting.

Clearly the De Mo that everyone knew wasn’t like this. And the De Mo now probably wasn’t her true face either.

What did she want? The night before her wedding to Bai YueSheng she had come to look for him and said those things. What was her motivation?

De Mo’s eyes were filled with admiration. “You’re really so innocent. Fine, I won’t play games with you. I’ll speak plainly. Either today you go and do the thing that you’ve always wanted or otherwise wait and see, the Water God Xin Lin will never wake again.”

After he heard this Lance’s pupils dilated. With a killing intent in his eyes he asked, “What are saying?”

De Mo smiled sweetly. “Since a month ago I’ve been secretly feeding him Qing Lan fruit. Tonight I went by the Water Temple and ignited the Shi Incense. I predict right now he must be in agony.”

Lance had heard of the Shi Incense before. It was a type of very common perfume. The tradition of Midgard was the ignite it on the eve of marriage so as to help the newlyweds become accustomed to each other. But it’s effect wasn’t great and at the most would help people become more relaxed.

As for what the Qing Lan fruit was, Lance had some vague impression… but he couldn’t recall clearly.

“You don’t know what Qing Lan fruit is? It’s something very excellent.” De Mo laughed sultrily. “It’s the godly fruit with the legendary legacy of “dying for love”.”

These words stimulated Lance’s memory. He had after all memoried “Theology” when he was eight years old and his eidetic memory allowed him over the years to memorize various texts and his knowledge was broad. No matter how obscure the text as long as he saw it once he would remember it.

Qing Lan was the first generation Goddess of Love. She was a woman who was deeply in love with her husband. After a hundred years of loving him she unexpectedly discovered her husband might not love her back.

The heart was the thing most difficult to fully understand. Her husband spoiled her and treated her tenderly. They were the model couple of Midgard. No matter who looked, no matter how they analyzed, no one would have guessed that her husband didn’t love her.

But Qing Lan was the Goddess of Love. The thing she sought most in her life was true love. If the person beside her didn’t love her and was only pretending, then she would rather have never had this sham marriage.

How could she really find out if her husband really loved her not?

The Goddess of Love Qing Lan painstakingly sought an answer. Finally she crossed the void, entering a land forbidden to the gods, and saw the holy spring left by the Titans.

She struck a bargain with the holy spring. She used her essence to exchange for a green colored fruit.

If her husband’s love for her was true then if she ate the fruit and made love with him, not only would she feel pleasure but she would also obtain endless godly power. But if her husband didn’t love her, the fruit would take her life and send her to death-like sleep.

The Goddess of Love Qing Lan ate the fruit without hesitation and went to find her husband. After an evening entwined together, Qing Lan never woke up again.

She used her life to find proof, to prove her own love.

Between a fake happiness and a cruel reality, she chose the latter.

Because of this tragic story, this fruit became forbidden in Midgard. In the endless years that passed, in whispers it gained the name Qing Lan fruit.

Lance stared fixedly at De Mo. “You gave him Qing Lan fruit?”

“Yes.” De Mo looked extremely happy. “After all I am his fiance. Before the marriage if I give him things he wouldn’t raise his guard. Especially since, as you know, he loves to eat sweet things. As long as I cut the Qing Lan fruit into tiny pieces and place into into red berry juice, no one would be able to detect it.”

In most respects the Qing Lan fruit wasn’t poisonous. But because it was made from the holy spring of the Titans and had caused a god’s death, so people were on guard against it.

De Mo said, “The combined effect of the Shi Incense and the Qing Lan fruit is miraculous. That aloof and haughty godfather of yours, right now his body should be burning up like crazy.”

Lance’s face was extremely cold and the air around him like ice. His entire person looked as though he had just stepped out of hell. Without hesitation he struck. The light from his fingertip transformed into a dragon and was aimed at De Mo’s heart.

De Mo was one of the Lord Gods and she was the powerful Goddess of the Earth. She only turned her body slightly and escaped the vicious blow.

She said, “You’re very powerful. But if you want to kill me I’m afraid it will still take some time. Can YueSheng wait that long? There are other people that live in the Water Temple after all. What if he can’t hold on and found some random person to do it with….”

He would die.

His godfather would die.

The words carried the scent of the blood and made Lance’s vision red.

He had eaten the Qing Lan fruit. If he made love with a person who didn’t love him, he would die.

But love… true love… the love that even the husband who lived with the Goddess of Love Qing Lan for a hundred years couldn’t give her, how could those random strangers truly love his father?

It wasn’t possible.

De Mo didn’t truly love his father. Those people who admired him didn’t truly love him either. But who would truly love him…

It was Lance. There wasn’t any question. In this world the only person who truly loved Bai YueSheng, who eyes could only see him, was only Lance.

But…. Bai YueSheng was his godfather. Lance was his godson.

If they did those kind of things… even if afterwards he explained it was because of the Qing Lan fruit, then his feelings would be completely exposed.

He was in love with his own father. He loved him so much he could withstand the test of the Qing Lan fruit.

What would his father think? He would only be disappointed… and probably disgusted.

He would feel disgusted and he would hate him.

Even thinking about it, Lance felt intensely suffocated. The despair was too great, it covered the sky and cut off all avenues of retreat.

But… father can’t die.

And he couldn’t trust anyone except himself.

Only with himself could he be sure, in this world there couldn’t be anyone who loved him more.

Lance went to the Water Temple.

Initially Bai YueSheng didn’t think much. He only thought he been abstinent for too long making the heightened desire difficult to handle. Especially after seeing Lance being intimate with his little boyfriend, afterwards it had made him somewhat sensitive.

Ah Jiu said: “It’s already been twenty years. Finally your libido can’t hold on anymore.”

Bai YueSheng: “A ten thousand year old virgin like you wouldn’t understand.”

Ah Jiu laughed and said: “Do you want me to help you change your appearance?”

Although the Water God Xin Lin couldn’t go out “hunting”, but if he changed his face then Bai YueSheng could get some satisfaction.

Bai YueSheng thought for a while but in the end rejected it. “I don’t have many years left in this world. I’ll just bear it. In the next world, I’ll definitely find a big and energetic gong who can go “n” times in one night!”

Ah Jiu: “….” I can’t be bothered with you.

Although he said this however this day Bai YueSheng felt unusually uncomfortable. From the morning he had already felt his heart was itchy and uncomfortable. He was lethargic and didn’t want to go anywhere. He napped and even dreamed of Neil.

That black dragon’s two penises truly was something that he both loved and hated.

This spring dream didn’t bring him any relief but instead him made him more and more uncomfortable.

The lust was too strong. Bai YueSheng sighed and got up to have a cold bath.

Logically speaking no matter how strong the desire, after immersing in icy cold water it should recede. But who could have expected that the fire wouldn’t go out but burnt brighter and more hot.

Bai YueSheng didn’t have the personality of self-denial and really wanted to go out and find somebody.

But as soon as he had this thought Ah Jiu suddenly said, “The situation doesn’t seem quite right.”

Bai YueSheng’s head was somewhat confused. “Close your five senses, I can’t hold on any longer.”

Ah Jiu said, “Someone has given you an aphrodisiac.”

After that he used an auxiliary technique and helped Bai YueSheng’s burning head regain some clarity.

Although Bai YueSheng’s body still felt very hot however his head felt much calmer. This truly was an unnatural response. Even if he had been abstinent for a long time, it wasn’t normal to all of a sudden become this lustful.

In the cultivation world he had been given drugs by Qiu ChangFeng. Now recalling it it really was really goddamn very similar.

“Who did it?” Bai YueSheng’s eyes filled with anger.

To use such a despicable method against him. Goddamn, did they really think he was an all merciful Guan Yin that wouldn’t kill anyone?

Who cares about this stupid mission. First he would kill this despicable bastard!

Ah Jiu analyzed, “It must be someone close to you that you trust. There aren’t too many people, I will investigate….”

“There’s no need. “ Bai YueSheng’s face sank. “The one who gave the aphrodisiac is the one who wants to have sex with me. We just have to wait to see who comes.”

Bai YueSheng’s thinking this way was not illogical. After all he wasn’t a virgin girl who would cry and rage after losing her virginity, and therefore he couldn’t be blackmailed afterwards using the incident. Hence the reason should be because they desired his body and wanted to do it with him.

Ah Jiu had a bad premonition but he didn’t say anything. He trusted that Bai YueSheng must have some idea in his heart.

So when he sensed the golden haired and blue eyed youth appear at the gate of the water temple, Bai YueSheng felt a surge of anger and in one blow smashed his seat.

He rarely got angry because didn’t feel any kinship with this world. If he didn’t care then naturally he wouldn’t have any reason to get mad. But right now, he was really infuriated.

Ah Jiu said softly: “Should we give up the mission?” He understood Bai YueSheng’s temper. If he really got angry he wouldn’t acknowledge all six degrees of relatives, with one surge of viciousness he wouldn’t rest until he obtained his objective.

{T/N: “Wouldn’t acknowledge six degrees of relatives”, basically that nothing could stop him.}

And right now Bai YueSheng was very mad.

He cared about Lance. This years they had been by each other’s side day after day. He really treated him like his own younger brother but right now this person that he had used his heart to take care of had betrayed him.

As an non-emotional person not in the habit of using his feelings, this time he had invested his real emotions but this was the result he received.

Bai YueSheng really felt as though his face had been slapped so hard it was bruised!

He said with a stiff face, “Wait. See what he is here to do.”

He steadied his breathing and descended from the dais and walked towards the door of the temple hall.

If Lance was only here coincidentally then he definitely wouldn’t do anything. But if Lance was the one who had given him the drugs, then he would…

Just as he was thinking this, because of his body’s loss of control, when Bai YueSheng walked towards the door he stumbled over the threshold. He began to fall but then Lance suddenly appeared and seized him in his arms.

Through his clothes he could feel the strength and power of the the hand which was wrapped around his waist.

Lance gaze down at the person in his arms. In an instant he was enthralled. His gaze moved down from his dewy eyes, past the high bridge of his nose and landed at last on his exquisite lips.

As though his soul had been stolen away, by the time Lance realized what he was doing he had already kissed him.

The kiss that he had dreamed about. That bittersweet feeling that stabbed at his heart and lungs. That fantasy he had dreamed of day and night. The thing he thought he would never obtain in his life, it was right before his eyes.

Even if he had to descend to hell what did it matter? At least he possessed a memory that made living worthwhile.

With these kind of crazed thoughts, Lance couldn’t control himself. He fervidly deepened the kiss, greed and a desire to possess overwhelming him. He completely took out his secret, suffering heart that couldn’t see the light, placed it upon the high altar and awaited his death sentence.

Bai YueSheng was so furious that at that moment his mind was entirely blank.

The sound of Ah Jiu. The sound of Lance. All of it seemed so far away. He couldn’t hear anything, completely enveloped by a sense of powerlessness.

If he gave out his emotions, then he would only get obtain humiliation in return!

Hadn’t he been through this enough?

Bai YueSheng breathed in deeply. A crazed desire to kill Lance rose up sharply within him.

Ah Jiu’s voice finally penetrated into his consciousness. “Do you want to release your power?”

Bai YueSheng paused and then said, “Close your five senses.”

Ah Jiu: “…..”

Bai YueSheng closed his eyes. “First, I’ll get rid of the effects of this drug.”

Ah Jiu: “I understand.”

Bai YueSheng was hazy throughout the entire thing. Most likely the effect of the drug was too potent, or perhaps his anger was too strong. The divergence of his heart was hard to control.

This night Lance said many things to him and even brought up De Mo but Bai YueSheng didn’t hear it clearly. He was completely lost in a sea of desire, the only thing left in his mind was an endless need and lust.

Like a wild beast that had been hibernating for an entire winter. Once it finally left its cave and found food, this desire to be satisfied overwhelmed his brain, he couldn’t think of anything else.

By the time clarity returned, it was already the next day.

His state wasn’t as pitiful as he imagined. Lance had cleaned up well. He was lying in a comfortable bed. His lower body felt twinges of pain but it wasn’t extremely uncomfortable. Clearly medicine had been applied carefully.

After a brief moment of embarrassment, the anger rose wildly like a thermometer that had been dropped into a sauna. He exploded.

As soon as Lance appeared, Bai YueSheng raised his head. His gaze was cold and his words chilling. “You bastard!”

“Peng!” The red berry juice in Lance’s hand spilled onto the floor. The bottle had been smashed. The red liquid stained the white carpet, like blood in a snowfield.

Lance’s entire person froze. On his face was an indescribable emotion. His lip trembled and he opened his mouth as though he wanted to say something but no words came out.

Bai YueSheng was furious. “I raised you for twenty years. Is this how you repay me?”

Lance opened his mouth and finally lowered his head. His golden hair had lost its sheen and was like ash falling around him, making his pale skin appear bloodless and without life. “I’m… I’m sorry.”

I’m sorry?! Was this a complete admission?!

He dared to drug him so he could take him against his will! Bai YueSheng was so angry he felt as though his heart was being stabbed. He wanted to kill this person. He wanted to kill this person who had betrayed his heart!

But as his power swelled at his fingertips he couldn’t release it.

In anger Bai YueSheng said, “Get out! Lance Steen, from now on we will have no more to do with each other. If I see you again I’ll definitely kill you!”

Lance made a low sound. His eyes were filled with a vast emptiness. In the end he didn’t say anything and turned around and left.

We will have no more to do with each other. If I see you again I’ll definitely kill you. These words were like a curse that reverberated inside Lance’s mind, practically stealing away his soul.

It really was like this.

Even if he explained it was to treat the poison. Even if he told him about De Mo’s plot. But as long as he knew that Lance loved him, he wouldn’t be able to accept it.

Lance didn’t know how he left the Water Temple. Initially he thought he was emotionally prepared but after dream-like night, the next day was so ruthlessly cruel…

Lance wasn’t as strong as he had thought he was. He couldn’t accept it. He really couldn’t accept it.

But he still had something left to do…. He had to kill De Mo.

That woman wasn’t worthy of becoming his wife. This kind of poisonous, scheming woman had to die.

Like a corpse Lance hunted down this Earth Goddess with the instinct of a wild beast.

De Mo seemed as though she was waiting for him. She said, “How was it? Did your godfather taste good?”

Lance struck out. The methods he used was completely without care for his own life, as long as he could kill De Mo.

De Mo blocked and her voice appeared near his ear. “Did you know that Xin Lin dislikes you. He has always disliked you. Ever since the first time you killed someone.”

“Oh, it’s not when you were eight. At that time you didn’t kill anyone. Those children were killed by me. After all they were bullying you so much…” She laughed sweetly. “You shouldn’t have restrained yourself. After all you’re the God of Destruction. To destroy everything would be better, why would you hold back?”

Some light returned to Lance’s eyes. He said hoarsely, “What did you say?”

De Mo laughed. “The second time also wasn’t by you. It was also me. But at that time you were capable of cleaning up yourself. As expected you really have talent in this area. After all you in you flows the blood of destruction, killing is your nature.”

Lance’s head felt like it was going to explode.

“That Xin Lin really was an annoying hindrance. If it wasn’t for him you would have released your powers ages ago and changed the world to a new one. Why would we have had to wait so long?”

After that she added with a smile, “But I suppose I should be grateful to him too. He showed you your good side and I showed you your evil side. Once the good has been destroyed, then it is time for destruction to be unleashed.”

As De Mo’s heart was pierced by Lance’s sword she didn’t make any retaliation. Instead she smiled more brightly. “My God, I will be born again in the new world you create.”

The Twilight of the Gods  took place over the course of one bloody night.

The death of the Earth Goddess was only the beginning. Because of his blasphemy, Lance was attacked by all the gods. But no one had thought his young god could all of a sudden completely awaken his power, obtaining his godhood and unrivalled power and strength.

The catastrophic power was enough to destroy the entire world.

By the time Bai YueSheng rushed to the Temple of the Gods, what he saw was Lance standing in the midst of a bloodbath.

His mission was complete and it was in this fashion.

Bai YueSheng stared at Lance. In that moment he thought he saw Qiu ChangFeng.

Or it should be a man that was even more frightening than Qiu ChangFeng.

Qiu ChangFeng had imprisoned him for twenty years.

What would Lance now do?

Bai YueSheng felt as though the strength of his entire body had been plucked out. A terrible powerlessness overwhelmed him. He chose the most vehement way of leaving the world.

Death.

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After he removed himself from Lance’s memories, Bai YueSheng’s face was filled with shock. He never thought that it could be like this. “I didn’t know about the existence of the Qing Lan fruit. I…”

Lance stared at him without blinking.  “Yes. At that time I said many things to you but actually you didn’t know at all.”

Because they were making love, even Ah Jiu had shut off his five senses. Thus, everything was missed completely.

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T/N: Finally the reason for the “rape” is revealed. What did you guys think of the twist in the plot? Suddenly Lance seems so pitiful!

This chapter I felt really showed that BYS does care for the MLs in his own way. He may not interpret it as “romantic” love but I think that’s because he actually doesn’t really understand what it is. Imagine yourself as a transmigrator, each world to you would probably be like playing a video game. Since you are playing a “role” that isn’t truly your own self and you know at the end of the game you’re going to move on to the next game, each “love story” would probably seem just like part of the game to you.

This time however he recognized clearly that he had “given out his emotions” and so the ultimate “betrayal” was something so bitter to him that he chose to commit suicide. I feel like if he hadn’t loved Lance he wouldn’t have reacted in such an extreme way. I think BYS probably doesn’t really understand his own heart very well. I think this arc really showed some character development on BYS’s part and let us see behind the shallow veneer he puts on.

Anyway just my 2 cents! You may disagree with me. Either way let me know  your thoughts ^_^

A little extra teaser: I know some of you have been waiting for a confrontation between the MLs… not long to wait now haha!

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